Friday, January 8, 2016

When I concentrate...

I need my fan!

I need a fan on my desk, next to my recliner, in my closet, in the bathroom, around my neck, in my purse... 

I also need a heater near by because it's winter and its cold outside.

Here's the crazy....

I keep the heat down to 70 degrees during the day which is basically comfortable. Morning coffee in my office brings on hot flash #1. I turn on my desk fan... 30 seconds and I'm cold. I turn off the fan, get up and turn the heater on.

These little heaters work! OK I'm nice and toasty now. 5 minutes later, OMG it's hot. I turn on my desk fan, stop what I'm doing, get up and turn the heater off. UGH!

Back to work..... 2 minutes.... I've cooled off and turn the fan off. Concentrating with patience, I continue to create and craft with intricate and meticulous actions.  

Ooooo I'm chilly! I get up and turn my little heater on, and sip my coffee. Back to work!

PATIENCE.... CONCENTRATING.... and here it comes.... I feel the heat welling up and out from inside me, roiling to the surface, like steam rising to the top of my head.

 I don't bother to turn the heater off this time... I just turn the fan on. It's only going to last for a couple minutes... my internal heat. My husband has caught me on occasion with the heater and fan going at the same time LOL! He used to ask me what the heck I'm doing, but now he just looks, shakes his head and walks away.

Yep. He finally understands, that he will never understand.

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